EnaCycLe : The Modern Perspective

Meteor shower is a “once in blue moon” phenomenon that most probably if you are not an Astro freak, might just missed it even when the opportunity presents itself.

Not that I am a fan of Astrology but the idea would be seeing a Meteor shower and being captivated by it gives a crazy idea of almost 0.05% probability.

Yet, i would like to compare it to another 0.05% or less occurrence that i have experienced in my life.
Same idea applies, there’s a sight or a particular someone which i never imagined to meet before BUT it did.

It is like a common people gazed upon the sky and caught the sight of the most miraculous meteor shower coincidentally.

The sight carved deep to the mind and left a great memento within while also imposed a unshakable scar on the person. Now that is what i pictured as the absolute miracle.

Why a scar?

Imagine sighting the rarest/ priceless jewel right in front of you and as you makes step to pursue it, it gets further away. Just like the same boy who saw the meteor shower and runs along the track hoping to see it for a longer period of time BUT of course, it’s crazy for a boy to outrun the speed of light.

The scar is to be treasured since I believe at the present stage, no sight can outclass and outshine your very first sight of a meteor.

Is that the last? Yeah, it definitely is the last cause the next one you see will be different and the magic is “incomparable” as well. But, here i hope i’ve seen the last of it cause recollecting the sights of it gives me an unexplainable sense of disappointment… knowingly that sight had or will fade away.

Things get a little too comfy, twisted and tiring at the same time.

How is this even possible?

Enjoying while straining due to the unwanted stress, I basically spend hours on site doing nothing but worrying bout my unfinished report which is waiting & calling for me. “Come and finish me up.”

After work is a another zone of pleasure. Imagine leaping from hot, blazing sunny outdoor into a room with air conditioner. That’s the after-work experience. You tends to loosen the screws but you can’t because stupid faculty insisted that you send in your report before your industrial training is over.

Forget bout that, cause it is done with. Now, the long wait before semester reopens. 11 days to go.

Lately, just recovered from a semi flu-fever, sore throat infection. It has been hell cause I go to work even when not feeling so well (took one day sick leave).

Lost my voice for a few days. Trust me, for a music lover, losing voice is like super hell amplified by a thousand.

Lost and found, ever since, I am having a hard time adapting to the new found vocals. How is it possible?

My singing did improved somewhere around May 30th (thanks to Kris Allen, brilliant artist) but what I noticed is that my key just jumped up one bar again. Impressive coz here I thought my last May 30’s growth is already a big deal.

Nice, can’t wait to return to student life. Hehe,

Pretty contradicting to begin with the word “ideal” cause i been blurting for quite a while on this thing called as “perfection”. But here’s the deal, if you ain’t setting an impossible limit to chase after, nothing gonna be possible.

Agree?

If you don’t buy that, it is fine cause there has another philosophy on one step at a time. No need to set the bar too high and no need to draw this impossible line cause you can begin with a distance you can amount for. Acceptable too.

Still, I beg to disagree on what I just agreed on simply because time is a huge factor here. You go a step at a time means you got to have lots of patience, provided you own that much of youthfulness in you.

My ideal transformation is limited to the time and resources i can make use of for now. Given with the present materials, i believed it is the ideal time to try and give it a GO to this impossible undertaking.

Too much mumbo jumbo. What i meant to say is I need to change.

Very easy objectives to hit and meet;

1. PUT on Some Weight
2. Discover a PERSONAL Style
3. Create a IMPRESSION

Technical and industrial experience aside, PPI is what I need to achieve during this long ten weeks of mundane internship. Wish me luck.

Let the IDEAL change takes place. Let’s start by a little positive attitude here. There is always something to gain, if not weight, style and recognition and nothing to lose.

The power of the will is continuously being fuelled by our sense of wanting or not wanting a particular event to take place. However, the worse feel one can ever get is always subdued by the sense of giving up or weary till no more fighting spirit.

The craving towards non-existence prevails at this point and negativity fills the mind.

We are unable to stay high and mighty when we leans towards “not wanting” .

Our morale or enthusiasism is so much restricted to a point where we lose the will to complete and do anything at all.

The present stage I ‘m presently in is as such and I strongly believed this is a stage i need to get over but everything seems so impossible. The amount of workload and pressure from all kinds of direction are hindering my any progress of advancing.

Is there a solution? I believe one must be let go at this point of time so that the others can cultivate itself.

Just like abandoning your injured soldiers so that the big army can continue marching, maybe this is indeed the only way. But I can’t say for sure. So, how?

There is a common conflict within people to be selective.
If you have the choice to react or respond, which would it be?

“React is merely take action as an effect of instigation or arising of events.”

“Reacting is part of a response but responding could means so much more, it is through different level of understanding and thought processes that formulate different responses.”

Same considerations are involved to how and why a person responded differently. It finally, dawned on me at a certain degree that it is either I am ignorant with regards to the way I view thing or that I chose to ignore simply because the conditions are not very inviting.

Somehow, i learn that there is some kind of damage involved in my past actions or the way i presented myself. Or in whole, i am labelled as someone who cannot be “somebody”.

Nobody seems to be able to see my visions nor that I am able to explain to anybody.

The very statement suggests two things, either I am the ignorant one or that the others chose to ignore me @ they are the ignorant one. I hope it’s the latter one but the self-revolving me on the former statement does imply some sense of ignorance.

Weird, just weird!

Define NEW,
“something present is no longer present/lost or it is replaced”

The TAURUS type hates changes and prefer to stay in its present condition but “NEW” simply means changes will always take place.

And this CNY, NEW is happening so fast that I can’t simply adapt to its rate.

NEW 1# Sigh, last year just changed my spec, now I have to redo a new one coz broke it during 1st day of CNY.

NEW 2# A sudden urge of replacing my old set of wardrobe. But $$$ is a big restraining order.

NEW 3# Different way of celebrating new year…. went back hometown and gone idle for 2-3 days. So sienz, nothing much to do. Felt too old to enjoy the CNY with a bunch of little kids.

Not forgoting to mention, this semester mid sem break is advanced till the present CNY hols…
While i spend the break doing nothing and failing to relax, i will begin second half of my sem with a “weary” physical.

NEW Last# There is a remark where a person is renewed each and every time he survived a sickness, since the immunity system redevelops again.

With the previous fever and now, the troublesome stomach ache.. i guess i will turn anew when i recovers. Sigh…. NVM.

NEW can also means a Second chance to do over. HEHE, i believe tommorrow is a better today.

Things to be praised or good credits can also be things to be blamed & discredits or vice versa. POOR me care too much what others think and I don’t like them either be praise or blame coz I just chose to SHUT them down.
A friend advise me to not to be bothered by what others’ think. Guess, I should? I listed out my “killer-facts”, are these the characteristics of a GOD-LIKE (as my fellow course mates always say) or are they my walking DEMONS?

1. GOOD academics ( less than 4.00 already, sorry, yeah for disappointing news) which is Equivalent to a boring study GEEK

2. GOOD English ( MUET band 6 ) VS Greek to most people, cause they are a little afraid to speak to me OR they see me one kind, like wanna worship me dy.

3. GOOD leadership? Seriously? I don’t even feel so but it also means YOU are responsible for everything or you are too strict/ too serious to approach.

4. GOOD system for everything. Yes, I m labeled as systematic, organized and good time management. No problem bout this statement except for the fact that it is NOT TRUE. My time management is crappy like HELL!!! Reality check, I’m a super last minute person.

5. GOOD speaker? Got to be kidding, though band six, I m only good at WRITING. Worse case scenario if I am asked to speak Mandarin. For a Banana like me, speak mandarin as emcee to public?

6. GOOD singer….? Erm, as much as I wished to earn this title but I really sucked at my vocal. (I’m very afraid especially when people ask me to perform. Other than fact that I’m nervous, always messed up the key, hard to memorise lyrics and etc.)

7. GOOD look?????? Okay, this one is just a JOKE by my course seniors. I can’t deny the fact that I do look fine since every part of my body is alright, no flaws or handicaps. However, a good look comes from grooming and I don’t know how or to last to groom.

There goes my GODLIKE factors, there are some unmentioned but it basically sums it UP.
Life is always hard when YOU are in conflict with what OTHERS perceived of you.

PLEASE send someone to help me any time soon…. Ah, I guess the conditions aren’t right just yet. Have to wait patiently, should I? What say you?

Time for another long winded post on my current state of mind. When you have so much to pursue for in life, there are ought to be discoveries found during the process.

Well, even if you’re in idle period, you end up perceiving some sort of thought process or mind development anyway. Cause it is always on going, that of which describes the restless MIND.

This time on Perfection,

think for a second, since from Birth, a human is meant for perfection.

1. to achieve perfection in aspects, we start by grasping the concept.

2. or sometimes, we jump right to step two, exercise and try out repeatedly

3. then, the moment of pride, completed the ACTION but still, it has room for improvement

4. we chase improvement and try to OUTDO each other. Some of us reign supreme, but what happens to him, He still needs practising to maintain

Don’t get what i mean? One eg, we learn to walk but first, we need to know why we want to walk or our lazy butt won’t moves. then, we tried and tried though fall at times. Finally, we walked and then we find other walks better (model) or faster (athlete). The winning medalists never stop training for his perfection of walk/run. Got it?

Same thing applies to other things in life. Therefore, Perfection is TOUGH and ongoing, can someone ever be Perfect? Ponder for yourself cause i find that there is always this next LEVEL to the things you are doing.

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It is rare for one to be satisfied with only once when you’re singing or listening to your favourite song. Thus, chasing an Encore is pretty much a simple sense of craving. Who can control it? Who will be able to resist seeking a follow-up from it?

Often in times, you open the radio and somewhat hear a really cool song but never knew the title and how to find out more on it. If I’m a real fan, I would keep hearing the radio for quite a while till that one single song pops out again.

Something so common as a song, pursuing a reliving of moments is applicable to many bigger things in life. Life is about pursuing an encore for happy things and delightful instants.

Hence, if follow this principle, it is hard for a music lover to understand that the sense of being touched and the moment you fell for a song can never be relived even though you hear it for a second time.

Another scenario is that you don’t like it during the first time but a second time of listening to it, it turns to be a blast. Therefore, never get obsessed cause encore can come in many different ways, sometimes may be cloaked simply because we did not wish to see it. Look harder, listen attentively and it will come to you.

The perfect description of a dog-eat-dog world in human is the who’s the better dodger. Bullets come and go from all kinds of direction and often come unexpectedly. YOU simply don’t know when a bullet comes for you and worse, sometimes they don’t come for you and you pity thing just happened to be caught in the middle of the situation.

An unfortunate fact is that I happened to be a very poor dodger and bullets pierced through me regardless of whether the bullets were originally released towards me or not.

But here’s another irony and probably climatic deal about me, I am what everyone refers to as the Constant shooter. Yes, I must agree that I did release quite a number of bullets to a lot of people.

And I remind myself all the times to observe how to dodge a bullet from the experts, those who successfully dodged mine.

Life’s all bout surviving, the more bullets you dodged, the less trouble you’re in. Thus, keep in mind the following tips to dodge a bullet.

1.You are not required to Speak  for most of the time.

2. Speak only to Dodge (only when emergency & sudden)

3. Do not Speak to Shoot (it will comes back to you)

4. Bottom line, just keep your mouth shut!